Statistics show artists have a higher chance of being bi-polar. I believe that. I don’t think I’m bi-polar, cause I’ve seen bi-polar, but I’m probably more emotional than most. You see I have this theory that real musicians experience emotions on a deeper level than the general public. This is not to say your emotions are mere imitations or shallow, but just to say from my experience, it seems like many musicians are emotional and feel a stronger intensity of emotion than Average Joe. I’m not sure what causes it, but I do know what to call it: The Musician’s Curse. Why is it a curse you ask? Let me give you an example.
As a songwriter, most of my songs are based around artifacts of my life – people, places, events, etc. I’m not one to brag, but I’ve had many people mention how cool/great/interesting my songs are. In fact, I’ve had students request to learn some of my songs, and I’ve heard people humming my songs after they’ve heard them. On the one hand, my intense emotions allow me to write beautiful masterpieces of song, and to explore the depths of pain, fear, grief, anger, despair, hope, elation, love, joy and Serenity in a way I know some may not be capable of. On the other hand, there are times when I could totally live without emotional depth. Like today. My one saving grace is I do at least have a guitar to pour my new-found experiences into, and one day I can look back at this amazing masterpiece, and remember, but not feel. I just wish that day was today.
